Show Your Wounds

Recently I was listening to “The Consolation of Philosophy” by Boethius when this quote caught my attention – “If you seek the physician’s help, you must show your wounds.” This is such a simple and obvious truth, but if you think about it, you will notice that it is easier to understand than to practice.

Now I am not talking about physical wounds. Obviously if you go to the doctor to treat a physical wound, you do not hesitate to show your wound. But our emotional and spiritual wounds are much harder to deal with. These unseen wounds quickly surround themselves with shame and sometimes guilt. Perhaps we accept conventional wisdom like “Time heals all wounds” or “Out of sight, out of mind.” But time alone does not heal our wounds, and just because we are not intentionally focused on something does not mean that it is not affecting us. The truth is that until we show our wounds, allowing them to be cleansed and dressed, there is little hope for healing. Unattended wounds fester and become life threatening.

To be healed we must first be honest about our wounds. We must correctly name them. We must bring them out in the open in order to treat them. This demands trust. It is not wise to show your wounds to just anyone who happens to be around you. Rather you need to find someone who is willing and able to help you.

Willing and able reminds me of a story from the life of Jesus. Once a man who had leprosy came to Jesus for healing. Showing Jesus his wounds he said, “If you are willing, you can make me clean.” He had great faith in Jesus’ ability to heal, and great hope that Jesus wanted to heal him. His faith and hope were well placed, for Jesus said, “I am willing. Be clean!”

Jesus always stands ready to heal. We must summon the courage to show our wounds so that they can be made whole. Finding someone who cares about our healing and growth is a great start to dealing with our hidden wounds. If you are suffering from unhealed wounds, I hope that you will have the courage and faith to show them so that you can be healed.

- Kenny Payne

Gifts from Paul Ricoeur

Paul Ricoeur, in his excellent treatise, Figuring the Sacred: Religion, Narrative and Imagination  has taken me back to school in very many ways, but most especially, he has helped enucleate further my understanding of my role as a spiritual companion.    Like Virgil, in Dante’s Divine Comedy and in preparation for Lent,  he has guided me through serpentine alleys of past caliginous and in some ways totally forgotten territory—stains, if you will, in my own life tapestry.  And he has quickened my imagination with clearer possibilities in a work begun while I was an undergrad in  Seminary treading vestigial steps of Duns Scotus through Scholastic philosophy: being and the meaning of God and man.   My thesis centered on the Self-concept that so fascinated Thomas Merton, an awareness of which reassured me that my path through life may indeed have been in the right direction, at least. 

 

In his chapter, “Pastoral Praxeology, Hermeneutics and Identity,”  Ricoeur, a phenomenological hermeneuticist, has formulated my questions surrounding the path of self-discovery articulated in Greek class by “the man, himself,” Plato:  “the first and best victory is the victory over self” in a more helpful and focused framework than my young collegian-apprentice philosopher mind could ever have.  My thesis focused on a limited view of Self as constituted by psychology, never even approaching the far deeper aspects: anthropologically, philosophically,  theologically or even spiritually.  Ricoeur put a full skeleton and skin on the topic by suggesting I many have missed the whole point of the topic by over-looking, or misreading the topic as a bundle of topics-- “privileged objects of interpretation:  texts, events, institutions and personage.”  He transformed the exercise into one of hermeneutical interpretation of the “relations of intersignification” among all these objects to understand each element in their parallelism, intersections and intersignifications.  Who knew?  At least this tyro did not have a clue!

 

My academic training for spiritual direction guided me and helped to shape my vision of the role of the spiritual director as a companion or fellow-traveler amid my directee’s journey through the corriders of her life.   I had actually adopted Cicero’s characterization of “anam chara,” soul-mate, by applying his definition of friend:  Amicus est tamquam alter idem,  a friend is the same as another self-- without having a full conception of what that role entails.   The spiritual director is a figure of Virgil, leading Dante, as in the Divine Comedy.

 

  Ricoeur helped to put meat on the bones of the issue, suggesting that the quest of the directee is one that mimics the famous “snipe hunt” for what she hopes is a deeper understanding of Self or Identity as both idem and ipse.  What aspect of one’s Identity is permanent (if such can even be the case) and what represents the Self we are becoming, the self the directee hopes may emerge via our spiritual praxis in direction?   The problem, as we go deeper into the recesses of being,  arises when we see that as  “companions” we see and hopefully “accept” a latent Self that the directee thinks she is as a result of all her book learning (texts);  experiences of development and coping (events); internalization, as shaped by all society’s influences (institutions); and her God-given gifts of personality and talent (personage).  The directee also expresses an ideal Self representing who she wants to be, or aspires to be and finally, a Self she truly is, Thomas Merton’s “true self.”

 

   It is the final fruit that we hope to harvest with our directee as we cultivate our relationship together with the Holy Spirit.  Ricoeur offers us the hermeneutical interpretive dimension suggested to him by Heidegger in his term Selbtsheit, selfhood, later translated into French by Emmanuel Martineau—ipseite’.  In Latin-English it becomes:  ipseity, which hearkens to Duns Scotus’ famous haecceity, “thisness”—the very element of identity that makes a thing a thing or a person a genuine person, Heidegger’s “Dasein”—that gives that person it’s very dignity and univocity with God.  So, you see, Ricoeur took me full-circle as a devoted Scotist.  He has redirected me to my original life goal—the quest for the True Self—and in pursuit of my own telos,  a very definite focus upon a deeply meaningful contribution to the consciousness-raising Teilhard de Chardin posits as the most meaningful behaviors each of us can engage in as full participants in the evolution of the Noosphere.   Ricoeur reveals a dimension of studying and grappling for our directee’s peripeteia, the “changes and reversals of fortune” in their unique narrative of life in concordance, discordance and final accordance of self-identity, Fr. Richard Rohr’s interpretation of “order, disorder, reorder.” 

 

Ricoeur suggests that life is open-ended, introducing another of life’s dialectics: of closure and opening.   Spiritual direction and the hermeneutic of discerning one’s life narrative is to “posit a beginning…or several beginnings and discoveries, a middle cum highs and lows and finally an ending.”  In so doing, together, the director and directee complete a course of study, a discernment project, even a book.  Unlike a written discourse, life is open at both ends and the story never ends.  As St. Gregory of Nyssa counsels, the epektasis continues even beyond this existence—constantly revising and spiraling in the direction of Chardin’s Cosmic Christ and His Omega perfection of Creation.

 

  Isn’t it wonderful?  We are the author, protagonist-hero, narrator in our own books and deuteragonists in everyone else’s, hearkening to the Stoics’ estimation that we are each a “history written by the gods,” or in our Christian existence, a unique parable written by Christ.   In the spiritual direction process we become converted by embarking on a truly “examined life.”   We claim our meaning by taking Socrates’s (Know thyself)  seriously and working to make our own meaning in consort with the grace of the Holy Spirit who hovers over and throughout our story.

- Phil Zepeda 

 

 

Bringing God with Us into the New Year

In order for us to bring God with us into the New Year we need to understand who God is in our life right now. Not when we were little…not 2 years ago, but right now. We cannot think about bringing God with us into the New Year until we determine who it is that we are bringing with us.

When you close your eyes and try to imagine Jesus, what does he look like? Take a few minutes and try to really imagine in your mind what Jesus looks like. When you are ready open your eyes.

Was your vision just black? Unable to really pull up a vision of Christ? Or were you able to just make out a figure off in the distance, but it could be anyone since your vision is not clear? Were you able to rid yourself of the darkness and make out a vision of Jesus, but he is so far away that you really can’t get a good look at his features and you really can’t hear his voice? Or is Jesus walking towards you close enough that you can make out what he looks like, what he is wearing, the expression on his face the sound of his voice. You are anxiously waiting until he gets closer to you. Or is Jesus close enough for you to touch him. Close enough that you are able to sit down, face to face, with your eyes locked on each other and your hands clasped together. You can look into his eyes and you can hear his voice and most of all you can feel the love coming off of him? Which Jesus were you able to imagine? Which one do you want to bring with you into the New Year with you? In order for us to bring God with us into the world, we need to have an understanding of who we are bringing.

The world needs God right now…the world needs us right now. We just celebrated the feast of the Epiphany. Jesus was born during a time of great distress. The people were waiting for someone to come and lead them out of the mess that had been created. They needed a Moses to bring them out of slavery and into the promised land. They were waiting for God to answer their prayers. They were waiting for a miracle. Does this sound familiar? Look around at the world and we are also in great distress. The pandemic is continuing on and it does not seem to have any end date in site. People are separated from their loved ones and for many it has been a long time. There are wars, hunger, poverty, uncertainty and so many losing faith, leaving the church, losing site of God. God answered the prayers so long ago. He sent us his son. Those Holy Wise men followed the brightest star they had ever seen, and it led them to the brightest star who would ever live. The King of Kings. The Son of God. They knelt down in front of him, placed gifts at his feet and when they left they brought Jesus with them in their hearts. The story of this visit is a good example for us in how we can bring God with us into the New Year…so again I am going to ask you to close your eyes…and just imagine…

—- Jackie Sullivan