In the month of May, this year, I lost my sight completely, for about three weeks, because of an accident in my home. During those weeks I lived my life in darkness. It felt like life slowed down, because I couldn’t see the movements that was going on around in the outer world. Yet I still had my conversation with God.
After a while I noticed things in a new way. I became more aware of the movements inside of me. You could say that it was like a movement in my soul. Then I recalled what Saint Ignatius talks about in his Spiritual Exercises. He talks about the movement of the spirit and the importance of listening to those movements. Above all, to discern between the good and the bad spirit. In more contemporary words you could say the difference between being attuned to oneself or not, that is being attuned to Gods’ dream for each one of us.
Through those weeks in May it became more important than ever to analyze which movements that drew me out from self-centeredness into connection with other people around me and God. Asking what God called me to in this new situation.
Life is a fragile thing. Still, both in good times as well as in bad times, there is a possibility for each one of us to seek the movement of God and his spirit in every time of our life.
Psalms 139:12
Even darkness is not dark to You,
And the night is as bright as the day.
Darkness and light are alike to You.
(NASB)
— Hillevi Bergvall