As I reflect upon graduating from Loyola University Chicago, Thomas Merton's prayer comes to mind...
My Lord God,
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think I am following your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you
does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road,
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always though
I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
—-Thomas Merton
I too have "put all of my eggs in the basket". I said "YES" to God without even knowing the question being asked of me. Yet, I am at peace. At peace without a job because of my relationship with God. A God that loves me more than I love myself. A God that continues to bring life and light even to the darkest of hours.
Am I doing God's will? Whose voice am I listening to? I cannot know for sure, but In discerning what brings life orients me towards the loving Creator. A new day is dawning and life will flourish in the light...
(Above photo I took several years ago near Salt Lake City.)
Peace and Joy,
Mark Olivieri